I wasn't sure whether to title this song "Angry" or "Not Angry". If in doubt, I usually go with the option that has the fewest words.
Someday soon I plan to add the original version to this page so you can enjoy my creative process. There were a couple of features that were ultimately edited out. The first to go was an aggressive vocal version of the chorus at about 4:00. You can still hear the intensity picking up. Just imagine me shouting "I'm not angry now" in a really angry-sounding voice. I enjoyed the irony of that, but ultimately I figured that was a little too fun for a song that really isn't supposed to be fun.
A second feature was a car crash in vivid stereo. I fell in love with that sound effect, and once I had plugged it into the mix I had a hard time parting with it. I polled several people whose opinions I trust. Most felt that the song stands on its own merit, and the sound effect is unnecessary, if not gimmicky and distracting. However, there were a few people who liked it, which reinforced my attachment to it right up until the end. Just in case, I brought two versions to my mastering session with Tim Brown of Actual Air Recording. One version included the crash, and the other didn't. I had Tim listen to the crash-version first, and he laughed and said he loved it. This wasn't intended to be a funny song. Tim's laughter convinced me that the car crash would have to go.
I was driving home late last week looking forward to gettin home to sleep when out of nowhere to my right I saw a car speeding towards me And that moment seemed like an hour I could see the face of the driver she had a look of panic in her eyes then I felt the pain of impact I wondered whether she was ok and I wondered what was on her mind She must have felt terrible I hoped that I could help her And I didn't get angry then and I'm not angry now cause getting angry don't do no good It don't solve any problems *** I met a kid downtown today seemed to think I was in his way he gave me a shove and he put a gun to my head And he said hey man what you think you're doing in my town I guess he thought that he was quite a clown and I looked into his frown And I wondered what made him that way Did he have a mom and dad who loved him? Did he have a dream of what he wanted to be someday? And I didn't get angry then and I'm not angry now cause getting angry don't do no good It don't solve any problems *** I heard about a kid in Afghanistan just surviving any way he can in a dried up, desert land where there's not a lot of prospects His only goal was to become a man so they knelt down in front of him and explained to him of evil and they taught him how to drive a van And I wondered what made him that way could we have somehow made him different? Could we give him a dream of what he might be someday? But I didn't get angry then and I'm not angry now cause getting angry don't do no good There's better ways to solve problems *** What would you have been feeling then? What are you feeling now? Do I make you angry? or do I make you smile?
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